romance issues

Okay, this dude and I have officially advanced to the point where we're playfully telling each other to shut up. Also he took a picture of me yesterday (not in a creepy way; I was sitting with the other locations assistant and we were petting the goats [yes, we had goats on set yesterday] and he snapped a picture of us) and he asked me more than once when I was going to be there again. He's definitely getting my number on Monday.

Good job, Rose!

Personally I think I'm gonna have to call that girl. I've barely slept or eaten for days. Food lost its taste, I can't focus on anything and everything in this city reminds me of the fact that I didn't choose to move to Uppsala with her. I can't be in my apartment without the urge to break everything there and I can't take a walk outside because again that's just another reminder that it's not Uppsala.
I'm completely losing it. I've never really done a big romantic speech to try and win the girl back but I suppose it's time I give it a try.

Wel'p, it failed. Still hurts like a bitch, maybe even more so now that I can't be all deluded and cling to the ridiculous notion that she'd take me back, but I guess now I have a realistic point to move on from.

Well it turns out he has a girlfriend.

Guess I should've seen that one coming.

To think someone from the crew was actually interested in a relationship with me...

I'm an idiot.

Really sorry to hear that, Rose.
Wanna join the sad people group?

No, I wanna join the confused about life and annoyed that I can never have anything normal support group because honestly, this is such fucking bullshit. HE was the one who was interested in ME. It's not like I was randomly crushing on him and trying to get his attention and oh, too bad, ANOTHER DUDE doesn't like me. No, he was the one who kept finding excuses to talk to me and teasing me and being unmistakably flirtatious, and I was so amazed that this one, this sweet, funny, adorable, good-quality guy actually liked me, because normally, the only people who are into me are desperate losers who only hit on me because I'm the nearest thing with a vagina. Like wow, a cool guy who actually likes me for who I am and not the fact that he's lonely and I'm female? Sign me up!

So when I got to set yesterday I was all excited to talk to him and he was all excited to talk to me, and I was like, "How was your weekend?" and he was like, "Great; I was really busy" blah blah blah and I asked him if he went to the wrap party and he said he only went for an hour because he had to get up early the next day to drop his girlfriend off at the race. (There was some kinda charity race here over the weekend IDK). So as soon as he says the word "girlfriend" I'm like... oh. And he asked me if it was my last day and I was just like, "Yeah, it's my last day," all grumbly and despondent and I started walking away and he was like, "Well I guess I'll see you around, buddy."

So I went in the barn and sat down and I was so upset and I didn't know if I wanted to chew him out for leading me on or what, but finally I decided that anger wasn't going to solve anything, so whatever I said to him I was going to say it in as nice of a tone as I could possibly muster. So, they're still setting up the shot and we're all still sitting around, and about 45 minutes after the girlfriend bomb dropped, he walked past with a tray of Starbucks and I just said, "Don't trip" and he comes up to me and starts talking to me again and it's business as usual. Like WTF. I was ready to stick an angry, jaded fork in it because it was obviously DONE, and here he is being all cute and sweet and funny and making me feel good all over again. So then of course we spend the rest of the day trading looks and joking around, and I even stood there while he unclogged the toilets in the bathroom trailer and told him he was a badass for doing the shittiest job on set. I mean I figure if he's gonna be nice to me, I might as well run with it because he makes me happy and I enjoy being around him, but it's obviously it's not going anywhere.

I didn't get a chance to say goodbye to him last night because he got out early and I was stuck up on the hill when he left, so it'll be some time before I see him again, but I'm just so annoyed and confused and I wish I could have five more minutes with him. Like, I have no doubt in my mind that he genuinely likes me in some capacity, but APPARENTLY it's not the you're-hot-and-I-want-to-date-you type of liking me because clearly the universe would absolutely fucking collapse if an attractive, decent guy thought I was cool and bought me dinner.

I'm just fucking done with this shit because apparently, even the guys who like me don't like me. I'm just the cute friend and I'll never be anything else. You know when you see people trying to adopt out shelter pets and there's always that ugly-as-sin Pit Bull with three legs and an underbite that just "has sooooo much love to give" if only someone would give it a chance? Well that's me. I'm that dog. People pet it, people feel sorry for it, people tell it that someone will come along eventually, but in the end, nobody wants that fucking dog because it's an ugly piece of shit.

So whatever... I'd love to daydream that this guy's girlfriend doesn't actually love him and he's looking for a way out, but that's probably not the case.

Rose1991 wrote:

So whatever... I'd love to daydream that this guy's girlfriend doesn't actually love him and he's looking for a way out, but that's probably not the case.

Extremely relatable.

When things are at their toughest I fantasize about us getting back together and it keeps me sane for a while.

You guys should cheer yourselves up, and have some hope for god's sake. Don't let anything make you miserable. It's not worth it at all. You're all wasting your precious lifetime. Move on.

The_River wrote:

You guys should cheer yourselves up, and have some hope for god's sake. Don't let anything make you miserable. It's not worth it at all. You're all wasting your precious lifetime. Move on.

It's not as easy as "cheering ourselves up". What makes you think I don't have hope? I'm always hopeful, but that doesn't mean I can't be sad.

Being miserable is part of life sometimes, and I think it's perfectly natural to allow yourself to immerse in those negative feelings for a while. You can't truly get over something unless you really confront it first. It's a process that takes time, not something you switch on and off.

Well, i finally came here too, so...
Yesterday my (now ex) girlfriend told me she is breaking up with me and it's final and i can do anything but she won't change her mind about that. We were together for a half-year.
She had ended a longterm relationship few days after we met. We could speak for hours, and we did it for some time, just talking, meeting and texting for a really long time. Everyday, everynight we had somekind of contact. Eventually we kissed at the party and ended up as a couple. She told me that she is finally happy, but she don't want to be hurt anymore. She had problem with her ex, he was texting to her and wanted her back, after she finally told him it's over and they shouldn't see each other again, i thought it was time for us to be happy. Month ago she told me thay she saw him with other girl, and she felt bad for it, and she can't start new thing without ending old. I accepted it and we had a month break. Yesterday she called me and told that she is leaving, and don't want to be in relationship with anyone... And need to be single beacause she was in relationships for 5 years and we were to hasty to be together.

We are meeting at the weekend to speak about it... Don't know what to do. I feel awful and haven't sleep last night... To many things in my mind right now.

And she was with me at the only Gaslight show in my country, so i can't even listen to the records...

Well, dating sites do not work. Ive only gotten a 19 yr old single mom to look at me. I honestly believe the woman for me, was hit by a bus.

Is a DSS gofundme to hire an escort for Jimmy out of the question?  I'm not talking some 35 year old Pittsburgh woman who supports two kids and a drug habit by turning tricks on the street.   But like a $400/hour, ex model, solid LA 8 which is like a 10 in NYC rocking Jimmy's world for an hour. Definitely will boost Jimmy's self esteem and put a swagger in his step.

DamagedUniverse wrote:

And she was with me at the only Gaslight show in my country, so i can't even listen to the records...

Dude, my ex introduced me to Doctor Who and it's the number one thing we bonded over. I haven't spoken to him in over a year and I hate the ground he walks on, but I'm getting a Doctor Who tattoo in a few weeks because I still love it that much. I know it's hard, but you have to separate those things from each other.

I'd donate money to get Jimmy's willy wet!

I keep a no pre marital vow.

JimmyB wrote:

I keep a no pre marital vow.

Dude you must have very uneven forearm sizes...

Harbortown wrote:

The_River wrote:

You guys should cheer yourselves up, and have some hope for god's sake. Don't let anything make you miserable. It's not worth it at all. You're all wasting your precious lifetime. Move on.

It's not as easy as "cheering ourselves up". What makes you think I don't have hope? I'm always hopeful, but that doesn't mean I can't be sad.

Being miserable is part of life sometimes, and I think it's perfectly natural to allow yourself to immerse in those negative feelings for a while. You can't truly get over something unless you really confront it first. It's a process that takes time, not something you switch on and off.

You're free to do whatever you want. Switching on/off is the best thing for me, but since we are all very different, feel free to immerse as much as needed for your very own catharsis.

JimmyB wrote:

I keep a no pre marital vow.

Why?

Rose1991 wrote:

DamagedUniverse wrote:

And she was with me at the only Gaslight show in my country, so i can't even listen to the records...

Dude, my ex introduced me to Doctor Who and it's the number one thing we bonded over. I haven't spoken to him in over a year and I hate the ground he walks on, but I'm getting a Doctor Who tattoo in a few weeks because I still love it that much. I know it's hard, but you have to separate those things from each other.

I'm trying, it's difficult and brings many memories. I think i just need some time to think it through and realize it's just the way things are gonna be now.

Another guy alwayys cmes around

JimmyB wrote:

Well, dating sites do not work. Ive only gotten a 19 yr old single mom to look at me. I honestly believe the woman for me, was hit by a bus.

How Harbortown has passed this quote up I have no idea...

New one for you..... "**** relationships. If I need something done, I'll do it myself. I'm too f***** up in the head for one anyway. I had one that failed and I don't want one for awhile" aka " you're not my type. But you seem too emotionally damaged for the truth"

Jack wrote:

JimmyB wrote:

Well, dating sites do not work. Ive only gotten a 19 yr old single mom to look at me. I honestly believe the woman for me, was hit by a bus.

How Harbortown has passed this quote up I have no idea...

I guess I'm way more interested in his decision to not bang until he's married. I need answers.

Because well, knowing my luck, I'd get a girl pregnant the first time around, even with all precautions. Plus I'm Christian. But, I never have to worry bout it you know, since no woman will ever have any interest in myself.