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Jimmy, I'm just a few years younger than you. I've been snubbed by a bunch of girls. I explained a big long story where I was totally destroyed by a girl who I had been friends with for 3 years, but was really bad for me. My best friend has completely ignored me for the summer because she is spending the entire time with her boyfriend, and he does not like me at all. Despite the fact that we are, in fact, best friends. I've only had one girlfriend in my entire life, and a few missed chances that were all my fault, and not the girls'.

I have a lot of disappointments and stuff I could tell you guys about. I came 5th place in a video game tournament a few months back that I totally could've won if I had buckled down a bit. I'm not very happy with the purple Warhammer 40k Orks that I painted today. My two separate sets of friends went to see The Amazing Spider-Man without me (of course, I couldn't go both times), and now I'm left to scrounge together a group of people who haven't seen it.

I have some more important stuff. About 90% of my Italian family side despises my mother for something out of her responsibility, and thus I can only see them maybe once or twice a year. Despite the fact they live only an hour away. And they've been doing this for a few years now. I feel sometimes that they dislike me by association. I fear that my younger cousins who I love so dearly and have spent my entire life waiting to be older so I can be their older role model will forget I even exist. My uncle is a drinking, homeless drug-addict who has been in and out of prison and rehab for the past few years and has broken my mother's heart time and time again. In less than a year, I will be off to college, and the friends I've made, some of which I've known for 14-15 years of my life (as-in, since I was 3, Jimmy) will be gone from me. Worst of all, I have no direction. I don't know where I'm going, or why, and I have less than a year to decide.

And you know what, Jimmy? I'm not going to sit around a cry. I'm not going mope and pout and make silly allusions to being a boxer. Knocked down 10 times, stand up 11, or whatever. If you want a boxing metaphor, go with that one. I'm not going to complain about girls who have snubbed me (unless it's a special occasion, in which I will keep that in the romance issues thread where it, and you, belong). I'm not going to bring down the forum because everything's not going my way at a certain time. You know why?

Because this shit is nothing. That's what it is, Jim. It's shit. I try my best to keep my language clean, but that's all I can describe it as. Shit. Nothing important in the grand scale of things. Nothing at all. Completely insignificant drivel on the face of existence. My trials and tribulations are my own, and they mean nothing to others, as do their trials and tribulations to me. I may have sympathy for them, which they may return. I may ask for assistance, and return it in full. But the fact of the matter lies in YOU. You must beat your demons. You must turn your life around. 16 girls turn you down, Jim? Ask out 17. You think your life is so bad? It's really not.

You can do it, man. All of this is insignificant for a reason- not to say you do not have worth- but because it is easy for you to defeat. You just need an attitude change. Realize that all of your problems are small-time and overcome them, before you start getting huge problems.

Sorry if none of this makes sense. I tend to ramble.

Also, sorry if this comes out at me complaining. I just felt if I explained to Jimmy that I'm feeling a lot of crap in my life too, but I can overcome it, he can too. I didn't mean to turn this in JimmyB: Matt L edition.