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steph wrote:

IrishNameAndAnInjury wrote:

steph wrote:

NeverTrustAJunkie wrote:

steph wrote:

Lorraine, you're on the Top Posters list now! oh, Spam...
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FML

I've got drunk video of me dancing. Not posting it but just wanted you to know it exists.

that's awesome

also the top ten list is half girls, mhmm!

We will take over this forum!

I just saw my post count. Kill me now! I spend waaaaay too much time here! But oh well, I'll have to cut back starting Friday when the kids go on summer vacation. Then I will be working 10-12 hours a day. I will go through withdrawals.

it's not a bad thing, you're like the house mother here! you can't escape your mothering tendencies, even here, sorry, toots!

Haha, I know! I've been taking care of kids with babysitting/teaching/nannying since I was 11 years old, so it's a huge part of my life. Sometimes I can't shut it off!

IrishNameAndAnInjury wrote:

steph wrote:

do you think you're just emotional or that you're really depressed sometimes?

i mean, i was so depressed i basically sat on the couch zoning out/watching tv/drinking all day for a long time. like, it was a big effort to brush my teeth and take a shower every day. or take a shower every other day, to be perfectly honest

it might seem weird for me to say that, but now that i'm feeling better and have some perspective, i don't care about talking about it.

moral of the story: if it's anything like that, you should do something about it and also, yes, it's nice to just randomly be happy and be happy about the future, too

I haven't been diagnosed or anything because no insurance and no money means no psychiatrist, but yeah, I definitely have been dealing with depression for the last several years. I have had every single symptom at one point or another, often all at the same time. It also runs in my extended family, so I know what it looks like. I have always been extremely overly emotional, like since birth, but this is different. I don't mind talking about it because it's a part of who I am and you guys have all helped me through tough times before.

When it gets bad, it takes every ounce of everything I have just to get through the work day, and that's because the kids need me. That's what pulls me through more than anything. Them, and prayer. They rely on me for everything, and I have no choice but to be there for them. But when I am home, I will just sit in front of the TV or computer and listen to sad music or watch shows that depress me further, and cry. And write a lot of sad poetry. That helps too sometimes. I would never post that stuff though. It's way too dark. And since I don't sleep, that doesn't help anything either. If I'm happy I don't really mind not sleeping, but it makes things worse when I'm depressed.

it's no fun living like that. but you shouldn't let it go on like that, even if you don't have a lot of money. if they know you are broke, they might be willing to charge a little less.
i know here, there was a low-cost psychiatric facility. it took about a month to get in, but it was much cheaper than seeing a regular psychiatrist.

i saw a psychiatrist for a while, but then i didn't feel like i needed to talk about things so much as just taking the anti-depressants. my psychiatrist referred me to a psychiatric nurse practitioner, cheaper cause she's not a psychiatrist, but she just asks me how the meds are doing, blah blah, and she can prescribe meds for me. she charges $60, and i only see her every couple of months so long as everything is going well.

if i can help in any way, you know where i am

steph wrote:

IrishNameAndAnInjury wrote:

steph wrote:

do you think you're just emotional or that you're really depressed sometimes?

i mean, i was so depressed i basically sat on the couch zoning out/watching tv/drinking all day for a long time. like, it was a big effort to brush my teeth and take a shower every day. or take a shower every other day, to be perfectly honest

it might seem weird for me to say that, but now that i'm feeling better and have some perspective, i don't care about talking about it.

moral of the story: if it's anything like that, you should do something about it and also, yes, it's nice to just randomly be happy and be happy about the future, too

I haven't been diagnosed or anything because no insurance and no money means no psychiatrist, but yeah, I definitely have been dealing with depression for the last several years. I have had every single symptom at one point or another, often all at the same time. It also runs in my extended family, so I know what it looks like. I have always been extremely overly emotional, like since birth, but this is different. I don't mind talking about it because it's a part of who I am and you guys have all helped me through tough times before.

When it gets bad, it takes every ounce of everything I have just to get through the work day, and that's because the kids need me. That's what pulls me through more than anything. Them, and prayer. They rely on me for everything, and I have no choice but to be there for them. But when I am home, I will just sit in front of the TV or computer and listen to sad music or watch shows that depress me further, and cry. And write a lot of sad poetry. That helps too sometimes. I would never post that stuff though. It's way too dark. And since I don't sleep, that doesn't help anything either. If I'm happy I don't really mind not sleeping, but it makes things worse when I'm depressed.

it's no fun living like that. but you shouldn't let it go on like that, even if you don't have a lot of money. i know here, there was a low-cost psychiatric facility. it took about a month to get in, but it was much cheaper than seeing a regular psychiatrist.

if they know you are broke, they might be willing to charge a little less.

i saw a psychiatrist for a while, but then i didn't feel like i needed to talk about things so much as just taking the anti-depressants. my psychiatrist referred me to a psychiatric nurse practitioner, cheaper cause she's not a psychiatrist, but she just asks me how the meds are doing, blah blah, and she can prescribe meds for me. she charges $60, and i only see her every couple of months so long as everything is going well.

if i can help in any way, you know where i am

Thank you, Steph! That really means a lot. The advice, the offer to help, all of it. I really appreciate it.

If I get any worse, I might have to check and see if there is a low-cost place like that around here. I have a lot of faith in the psychiatric field, it has helped a lot of my extended family, but I would be so reluctant to open up to someone I don't know. I'm just not that trusting. But anti-depressants I would take in a heartbeat, as long as the dosing wasn't so off it turned me into a zombie and I couldn't take care of the kids. I know sometimes that takes time to get figured out.

I'm just hoping that it won't get really bad again. I'm really trying hard to let things go and not take the world on by myself, among other things, so hopefully that will help some. This has been going on off and on for about six years, with a few bad episodes. This last one was really bad. You guys all helped though, and I can't thank you enough for just listening to me and putting up with me. I hope I wasn't mopey like you-know-who. I tried to keep that out of the forum!

of course, girly. i got your back

personally, i don't think you should wait til things get worse. i'm just saying, cause i've been there, and i know how hard it can be to reach out for help. but you know yourself best, so do what you gotta do.

seriously though, look into psychiatric nurse practitioners. i can't guarantee they're all the same as mine, but i don't have to open up so much with her as with a psychiatrist. she just wants to know if i'm doing okay, the meds are working for me, prescribe me more meds. that might be the best option for you.

i've tried a few meds, but i don't think i've had major problems on any. every person is different, of course, but i haven't had any experiences with feeling like a zombie.

and you weren't mopey like He Who Shall Not Be Named. there is a difference between that and just admitting you're having a rough time.

okay, now that i have successfully bummed out the Spam thread, i'm gonna go make myself some food. but seriously, you can PM me if you ever need to just vent, okay?

later, woman!

THANKS, STEPH! No, you haven't bummed out spam, don't worry! And I really appreciate the advice about the nurse practitioners. That sounds like a good option.

Have a good dinner and don't get bummed out; stay happy!

I'm going to go too. I have to be up at 5:30 for work tomorrow. Buenos noches, DSS!

What is up with this Thread? I have no idea what goes on in here................

LEAVE WHILE YOU STILL HAVE YOUR DIGNITY!


Just random chatter. And bouts of shameful activity. Feel free to join in. Just know you've been warned

NeverTrustAJunkie wrote:

LEAVE WHILE YOU STILL HAVE YOUR DIGNITY!


Just random chatter. And bouts of shameful activity. Feel free to join in. Just know you've been warned

Haha, I am all about shameful activity. My life is full of it so I think I will fit in just right

Well the latest craze is uploading recordings of yourself. The cool kids are using Vocaroo.com. I've no idea how to tell you how to use it because it's like magic to me. If you don't know what to say, you can read anything you want or say anything you want

Otherwise if you have a random vent/general life comment, this is pretty much the place to do it!

It's early.

Gordon! Why are you awake already?!

I really have no idea....

NeverTrustAJunkie wrote:

Well the latest craze is uploading recordings of yourself. The cool kids are using Vocaroo.com. I've no idea how to tell you how to use it because it's like magic to me. If you don't know what to say, you can read anything you want or say anything you want

Otherwise if you have a random vent/general life comment, this is pretty much the place to do it!

Hrm. I am probably not cool enough to post recordings of myself yet. Them kids and their vocaroo.com. haha, I have no clue what that even is. I have never been one known for his knowledge in technology. Well, at least I know what this place is for now.

This weekend I ran into a girl i never called and told her I'd call her again and now I am regretting it. Now I feel like a huge jerk.

Why don't you want to call her?

Wait..woah. I just got called a cool kid.

ohhhh yeah

NeverTrustAJunkie wrote:

Why don't you want to call her?

Cause I just don't want any risk of getting into a relationship right now. I am just having way too much fun and this next year is my final year of college. But the main reason is I just want to remain single.

It's ok to tell her that. Plus she may not even be thinking what you think she is!

NeverTrustAJunkie wrote:

It's ok to tell her that. Plus she may not even be thinking what you think she is!

Well...I ended up making out with her on her car that night...so....now I am probably stuck in a rut. Knowing my past experiences with girls, she is probably thinking more than I am right now.

OMG just go read the Romance Issues thread! We probably have advice for that situation there. Which inevitably is just tell the truth and the situation will go away.

NeverTrustAJunkie wrote:

OMG just go read the Romance Issues thread! We probably have advice for that situation there. Which inevitably is just tell the truth and the situation will go away.

Geez...you don't have to yell. haha. I am always getting myself caught up in these situations...haha...I guess I can take a look in that thread anyways.

Haha I didn't mean to come across as yelling. But yeah, we've all done the avoidance thing. It just feels crappy.

IrishNameAndAnInjury wrote:

steph wrote:

do you think you're just emotional or that you're really depressed sometimes?

i mean, i was so depressed i basically sat on the couch zoning out/watching tv/drinking all day for a long time. like, it was a big effort to brush my teeth and take a shower every day. or take a shower every other day, to be perfectly honest

it might seem weird for me to say that, but now that i'm feeling better and have some perspective, i don't care about talking about it.

moral of the story: if it's anything like that, you should do something about it and also, yes, it's nice to just randomly be happy and be happy about the future, too

I haven't been diagnosed or anything because no insurance and no money means no psychiatrist, but yeah, I definitely have been dealing with depression for the last several years. I have had every single symptom at one point or another, often all at the same time. It also runs in my extended family, so I know what it looks like. I have always been extremely overly emotional, like since birth, but this is different. I don't mind talking about it because it's a part of who I am and you guys have all helped me through tough times before.

When it gets bad, it takes every ounce of everything I have just to get through the work day, and that's because the kids need me. That's what pulls me through more than anything. Them, and prayer. They rely on me for everything, and I have no choice but to be there for them. But when I am home, I will just sit in front of the TV or computer and listen to sad music or watch shows that depress me further, and cry. And write a lot of sad poetry. That helps too sometimes. I would never post that stuff though. It's way too dark. And since I don't sleep, that doesn't help anything either. If I'm happy I don't really mind not sleeping, but it makes things worse when I'm depressed.

Shannon, if you ever need anyone to talk to or whatever, I'm here for you. I was first diagnosed with a form of depression (along with a boatload of other mental illnesses; I've honestly lost track as to how many I've been diagnosed with) when I was 13 and went through a massive amount of nervous breakdowns last year before I finally got the right diagnosis regarding depression (turns out I have a form of manic-depression and it's not just clinical depression) and got the right meds. I'm all ears if you ever need anyone to just talk to.

I also come from a family of doctors, so I'm more than willing to help you find resources, etc. and whatever you need.

And then if all else fails, read this again:

http://bizarrobrianfallon.tumblr.com/

I'm bored. Someone entertain me.